The Me I Am

Of all the things that I am and all the things that I may become: one thing that no one can ever deny is that I am me and I am I.

I may jump puddles, I may fly

I may fall down, I may cry

Sometimes the pain’s so great I just want to die

But I am me and I am I

World may be in chaos though I know not why

I may scrape my knee

I may trip and I may fall

But let me be, let me feel

I am me and I am I

Take away the shackles that hold me down

I’m not depressed just because I frown

The tears I cry the pain within may feel like daggers digging in

But give me the choice

Give me the chance to hear the music and maybe dance

I am me and I am I

If I cannot feel, if I cannot be

Where is the point of being me?

Once I was or I think I was

I don’t really remember maybe it was a dream

There are shadows and mirrors without any faces

I try to hide, search for safe places

They say why play you will never win

What’s the point of the struggle

Give up before you begin

I hear them echo, I hear them scream

The battles lost or so it seems but then a hint a flicker of light

There must be hope, there must be some point

Pain is not without a cause

I am me and I am strong

Give me space allow me to be

I may be ship wrecked, lost at sea

But even then there is a sun, a sun that shines with all its might

A sun that breaks through the pitch of night

A sun I pray to see

A sun that holds that fragile part of me that gives me strength the strength to be

A strength beyond all that is 

This hidden strength

This strength to live

Unto my self this gift I give

For I am me and I am I and I stand tall

I stand with pride though I may not be able to fathom why

I am me and I am I and with this knowledge a tear leaves my eye

I may never know the answers may never know why but I am too strong to give in

Words and pills and advice too

Everyone seems to know what I should do

But I need a chance

I need to live and maybe I’ll learn to forgive all those who took my life from me in false believes they could set me free

My memories hazy, my thoughts confused but if I do not try I will surely lose

For I am me and I am I

Please understand my reason why I want a chance to truly be

I want the chance just to be

Just because

Written by Jenny Benham